skins - franky & grace & liv

.and everyday, i've changed since then

It's not that late but I'm still kinda exhausted, my bodies been acting weird all weekend, which is no fun at all, but I'm in a weird, nostalgic, inner-monologue in my head is narrating my life, kinda mood, so I thought I'd write an entry to get all my emotions out.

So I started at my new school on Monday, classes didn't technically start until Wednesday, but because it's a massive intake year (They go from only boys to co-ed in year 10) we had two days of orientation. I am so thankful for music camp (not to be confused with Jazz Camp btw) because I managed to make friends with a group of really awesome girls who even catch the train from my station so the first day wasn't as daunting as I had originally imagined. Although that doesn't mean it wasn't scary. I won't go into details but I think I almost burst into tears on around twelve different occasions in the space of about three days.

Our group is pretty awesome. No guys, but that's mainly for lack of trying than us actually repelling them (well, that's what we hope). However there is this one kinda weird kid who doesn't really have any other friends but made friends with Jess (who doesn't really sit with us anyway) and we all met at music camp, and he keeps either a) leaning awkwardly against the pole that's in the area where we sit (awkward corner) and then randomly walking away when we ignore him, b) just wondering past us about twenty times over the space of one lunchtime or c) awkwardly standing around the corner.... I know I used awkward a lot of times in that last sentence, but seriously, this kid is soooo awkward.

Anyhoo, enough about our stalker. Brendon has officially become my PGNB. See, at first he was just, "The guy from Jazz Camp" and then he became my "Not-Boyfriend" and then I told my friends a bit more about him and now they all think he's gay, so then he became my "Possibly Gay Not Boyfriend" which was then shortened to PGNB. Which at first it was fun to joke about and stuff, but now it kinda depresses me because even if he was/is/will be gay, I really like him a lot and you can only make light of a good situation for a short time, and now every time he's mentioned I get a bit bummed out. We still facebook chat every night, and text sometimes, but I miss him heaps.

Helen leaves for Canberra on Saturday, we're going up with her and seeing some of mum's old friends so it'll probably make for a fun weekend, but I'm freaked out about how much I'm going to miss her.... I'm hoping something will happen fandom/internet-wise or school will get super busy so I can just submerge myself in it for a bit.
dw - eleven-amy

i got 900 channels, but nothing to see

Jazz Camp was amazing. I have never had such a fun week in my life, seriously. I'm kinda having withdrawals, feeling kinda down because I'm not with everyone anymore, so I'm listening to Scouting for Girls to try to get in a slightly more upbeat mood. I try not to think about him, because it makes me super excited, until I realise that I probably won't see him for another year...

Onto other things, Skins US, I liked all the original scenes that they added into the pilot, the one with Stanley & Cadie at school and the one with all of them in the bathroom cubicle, plus the characters Tea & Cadie (who are either completely new or quite different to the original) so although I'm not "OMG!! BEST TV SHOW EVA!!" yet, I'm hoping the next episode, which is all original stuff, will make me love it even more.

I'm just about to watch Being Human US, not sure how I feel about it yet, thinking it'll be like Skins, with me liking it more the more original stuff then add.

I'm finally coming to realise that I only have a week until school starts, and the point of the 'holyshite-newschool' emotional roller coaster that i'm on is the 'run around in circles freaking out because you are so scared that everything is going to go wrong' point, and I'd kinda rather just spend the rest of my life sitting on my bed, reblogging funny things on tumblr and laughing about inside jokes with my Jazz Camp friends on facebook.

I need a new pair of heels, a new ipod, to calm down, to do some ironing, to stop thinking about him and to add some more stuff to my collage wall
skins - alex & jess (r/g)

not ready to accept sleep just yet

I'm in a writing mood, but not a creative mood, and that leaves me with one choice, write about facts. So here I am, blogging away at one in the morning.

I went shopping with Helen today, we got up earlier than usual (ie. 9:30) and I attempted to spend all my Christmas and birthday money. Some new denim shorts, How I Met Your Mother s4 and nail polish. I've never really worn nail polish in my life apart from the couple of times I've painted my toenails this really pale pink, but I really want to try it, because it's the summer holidays and I have nothing better to do. I got some super cheap orange stuff (seriously, it was on sale for $1 a bottle) which I'm put on my toes this afternoon, still getting used to looking down and seeing it. I also got some more expensive stuff in a kinda dark plum and then this metallic almost lead coloured stuff, which I might try out later on my fingers once my nails are a bit longer, and I have the guts to. (NB to people who don't know me: I'm a coward)

I got accepted into Jazz Camp, so I'm super psyched about that, I'm treating it as a bit of a test run for February when I start my new school, throwing myself in the deep end with people I don't know. I'm a little bit nervous though because I know there are going to be some amazing singers there from all around Australia (in the info stuff they sent me there's this paragraph on getting taxis to and from the airport to the camp) and my ability to "be a good singer" comes more from my ability to perform than from my ability to hit the right notes and I know that a lot of the kids there doing voice are actually going to be proper technically flawless singers.

Eh, enough worries. I am super excited for new Skins. UK more than US, just because the UK stuff will be entirely new, and I know, the US is going off on it's different stories and such, but I know that the beginning will be pretty similar to Skins 1 so part of me isn't as excited as I am for Skins UK.

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So that's all of them and I should try to sleep now. Goodnight to my loyal (most likely non-existant) readers. Might looking into a new LJ theme tomorrow... to reflect my OMGWTFBBQ!!!I<3SKINS!!! mood.

Oh wow. it just started raining.
skins - franky &amp; grace &amp; liv

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I'm feel really odd right now, but somehow it's in a good way.

I cleaned out my room last week and got my dad to paint it. In the process I managed to move my furniture around so it's exactly the way it was when I first moved into the house, except instead of my second bookcase, I have my desk. It's really weird because I haven't had my bed facing this way in five years, and in those five years I've done so many things, and completely changed as a person. So it's just kinda strange being back this way,

I'm also in a kinda limbo at the moment, my whole family is. Helen starts university next month (even if she doesn't know which one) and I'm starting at my new school, but there's still a month of time to kill before anything happens, at least Helen's trying to visit all her friends before they go away, so she's got some more purpose than I do, but pretty much all my friends are overseas, so I'm just kinda floating hanging onto all the excitement I can find, which at the moment is get excited for new Skins eps (US & UK). It's weird being stuck in this middleground. When I was in Hong Kong, a friend of the people we were staying with who also came from Sydney, asked me what school I went to, and there was just this silence where I sat and wondered what I should tell her. I couldn't say my old school, because I don't go there anymore, but I couldn't say my new school either, because if she started asking any questions, I wouldn't have been able to answer them, because I don't really go there either.

I'm doing a thirty days of tv meme on tumblr, just to try and get used to my new graphics program (CS2, but before you laugh, understand that it's a big step up for me as I used to make graphics on PS elements 5) I've already put up a day, but I've made three days worth of graphics. I'll probably just stick them in the queue if I end up going to Jazz Camp, hopefully they'll still accept my application even if it is a bit late.

Happy 2011, I hope I can make it a good one.
skins - michelle

my brain is a storage container of metaphors

So many good things are coming, trips overseas, musicals, parties, dance concerts, music camps, new schools, but I feel like someone's built this massive bridge between now and then, and that bridge is the exams. And you see, it isn't one of those nice bridges that you can walk, skip or run across, this one has a strictly enforced speed limit and a big sign that says "bridge under repairs, come back five or so days."

I feel bad every time I start to get excited for those things on the other side of the bridge, when I catch myself planning the clothes I'm going to wear on the plane or fretting about the size of my scarf for my dance solo, because I have to be using these extra hours to prepare myself for the painful journey across the bridge, and anyone, I can deal with those things on the other side when I get there, when they come.

Once the bridge is opened, and I can start battling my way across it, I'll be fine, I'll jump every hurdle, dodge every obstacle, and before I know it, I'll be enjoying all those lovely things on the opposite bank, which now are just teasing me, flashing in the summer sun.

But for now I sit in limbo, in a waiting room full of anxiety and Greek vocabulary, counting down the days until someone takes down the sign, and we can start this painful trek.
skins - naomi

.I Wish I Was James Bond, Just For A Day

My calves hurt. You don't realise how unfit you get after five weeks without pointe, yeah, I've still been dancing, but not using those muscles. Now I can barely walk D:

Went to the movies with Elissa today, saw Diary of a Wimpy Kid, we were whispering all the way through it. I felt so rebellious with my feet up on the seat in front, giggling with my friend. Shows you how lame the rule breaking portion of my life is. Feet on seats and talking loudly in public places. I'm probably going to miss Elissa the most next year though, she manages to brush off all my stupid whinging whilst still managing to support and comfort me.

My hair needs cutting, my room needs cleaning, I need to change the water in the fish tank.

I'm freaking out about exams. Haven't even really thought about study yet though, all my books are still in my bag. Most likely going to fail English though, somehow I manage to be totally awesome in class all the time but still get crap marks for my essays and assignments (and but crap I mean "Asian Fail" even though I'm not asian)

And while I'm on the topic of exams I'm going to fail, better add Greek and Latin to that list. I swear whoever wrote the exam timetable wrote it with the sole purpose to try and kill me.

I need sleep, a new pair of heels, a new pair of shorts, a new summer dress and a new Ipod.

My room needs painting, I'm sick of pink.
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skins - franky &amp; grace &amp; liv

confuzzled feelings... :/

I love my Grandparents, yes, they're quite different to my own parents, but they love me very much. So I face this weekend with a mixture of dread and... excitement... sort of. You see my parents are driving to Canberra with my sister to look at the Australian National University. I would be coming too, but a special choreography lesson for dance has me staying at my grandparents.

Saturday's going to be all filled with sport and dancing, so I don't have to worry about boredom... but Sunday... I dread. I've loaded up my computer with Skins episodes and created a short pile of homework (Latin and English) that needs doing. I also live in hope that, like the last time I stayed there, the people next door will still have lax wireless security, so I can get online and check my email.

Next week is camp. Five days of hiking, tents, sleeping bags and powdered milk... again I face it with mixed feelings. Even though we were supposed to just pick buddies, somehow, because our senior tutors mucked up, A LOT, I've ended up in this weird, vague five thing... one of the girls, I must add, I only act like her friend because I know she likes me and I don't want to be a bitch and we do drama stuff together, so I listen to her, and talk to her, and try to get along with her but sometimes she can just get really, really painful and I think I may end up having to share a tent with her and... ARGH!!! I just hope they let me go in a two with Claire and she can go off somewhere else. Not to sound like a total wangst-er, but it's so frustrating being nice.

My brain's been all frazzled lately, and I can't seem to get anything straight. I think it's just lack of sleep or term 3 slump, but it's making me feel really shitty and all I want to do is just hide away from the world under my bed covers and ignore everyone around me.

BTW - just got a tumblr
gg - blair

day 02 - Your Favourite Movie

Blah! I hate having to pick just one! But I don't really have a lot of time to do a mega awesome post about all of my favourite movies. So I'm going to talk to you about The Italian Job.

Before you get all confused, I'm talking about the 2003 remake directed by F. Gary Gray, starring Mark Wahlberg, Charlize Theron, Edward Norton, Seth Green, Jason Statham, Mos Def, and Donald Sutherland.

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skins - franky &amp; grace &amp; liv

30 Day Meme

So as I trawled the great unknown that is the internet, I stumbled across something that caught my eye. It's called the "30 Day Meme". Basically you post for thirty days, and each day you talk about a specific topic. Although I would love to credit someone for it... I can't seem to find it's origin, but thank you to whoever did come up with it. I hope to have lots of fun over the next thirty days.

Here are the topics:

Day 01 → Your favourite song
Day 02 → Your favourite movie
Day 03 → Your favourite television programme
Day 04 → Your favourite book
Day 05 → Your favourite quote
Day 06 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 07 → A photo that makes you happy
Day 08 → A photo that makes you angry/sad
Day 09 → A photo you took
Day 10 → A photo of you taken over ten years ago
Day 11 → A photo of you taken recently
Day 12 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 13 → A fictional book
Day 14 → A non-fictional book
Day 15 → A fanfic
Day 16 → A song that makes you cry (or nearly)
Day 17 → An art piece (painting, drawing, sculpture, etc.)
Day 18 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 19 → A talent of yours
Day 20 → A hobby of yours
Day 21 → A recipe
Day 22 → A website
Day 23 → A YouTube video
Day 24 → Whatever tickles your fancy
Day 25 → Your day, in great detail
Day 26 → Your week, in great detail
Day 27 → This month, in great detail
Day 28 → This year, in great detail
Day 29 → Hopes, dreams and plans for the next 365 days
Day 30 → Whatever tickles your fancy

I will start tomorrow on the 23rd May 2010
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